Ok people...here are some random thoughts on the random things...pretty long so get comfy...i wrote this a while...so enjoy.

its easy to spot a fake person....u can immidiately see that they'r tryin to be something they not....there decisions...hence action reflect this....most people are outward orientated...by this i mean...they look outward...around them...in there enviroment to find an idea or a clue or an answer of who they are....they look to objects for an idea of who they are....not only this but must of us becoz of this outward orientation are attached to objects around us.....we attach ourselves to these objects an mistake them for ourselves....we define ourselves by these objects....its becoz of this mistaken identity that alot of our problems stem from....for a simple reason....everything in the objective world has one prevailant quality...a quality that underlines all physical objects....Change....theres a sayin that goes.."the only think constant is change"....the very nature of objects is that they will change.....so with us attached to objects that continously change...we'r overcome by so many unpleasant feelings...from fear to sadness...why....objects are plenty around us indeed they make up our enviroment...they cannot be avoided...but becoz we mistake them for ourselves...we feel seperate from one another...we feel alone...an yet all we want in live is that feeling of unity...that feeling of belonging...that all boils down to love.....wen we feel love we feel unity...togethernesss...bein part of something larger...but believing we are our objects putting our fate into those objects..we feel instead seperation instead of unity....fear instead of love....

case in point...a guy with a hot car...has a manner about him  that sugests he has a hot car..infact give him half a chance an he'll tell u he has a hot car an with that xpect u to fall down on one knee an praise him an ofcors love him...we all want to be loved in the end and while u might be appalled by this....the majority of girls wud do jus that....becoz of our attachment to objects we live in a  society that has made it ok...infact celebrates this attachment...we are told to work hard an earn money so that we might realise our dreams...our dreams of owning posh cars..big houses nice clothes....we all have em...we spend half our lives in skool waiting for that one big moment....in primary skool we wait for that big moment...its coming...u graduate...highskool....waiting again..its been promised to us..its comin...graduate...college...university...its coming again..work hard and it will come...work very hard..it WILL come...graduate....work...look for work...join a company...a junior...work very hard...its coming...u wake up one day 40 yrs old and realise...it was all a lie...from kindergarden they told u..."work hard and u will get wat u want"....we woked hard..we strived...faught...an now we'r tired...wat hapened where did life go....why is it a struggle..??

this is about the point society calls...a mid life crisis...wen 40 somthings panic apon realising their lives are comin to an end and they still do not have wat they were promised....love...pure hapiness...peace.....Love, pure hapiness and peace, all qualities that do not change...there not physical...u cannot point love to me..or show me where i can find peace....u cant touch hapiness...an yet we all KNOW that  they exist....make the connection here...objects continously change...we attatch ourselves to them thinking that they are us...we are owned by them...we fight over them...we hate each other over them....but the qualities that all of us want in life...the very reason we work so hard for these objects....hapiness..peace.love....are not physical....not objects.....

we think by gaining more and more of these objects...we will finaly arive to where we'v been working so hard to get to....peace...love..hapiness....u finaly by that car...it shud be the end..but its neva the case...in a short time we'r empty again...not fullfilled...so we seek then the next object that we think will fullfill us this time around....its insanity....

The definition of insanity: Taking the same course of action again and again and each time expecting a different result...

its jus not objects like cars or clothes...even people....we go from person to person, relationship to relationship...hoping that each one will bring us that blissfull love...that hapiness...but ofcors each one ends in disaster with each person hating the other...to the next person or object we go carrying the anger and fear of failure with us form the last xperience...a new relationship we enter into...but as soon as we do...we project our doubts an fears onto the other....insuring the relationship is doomed from its very begining....

this is wat it means to be outward orientated...to always look outside of urself for who u are...an wat u want....saddly our entire humanity is based on this view point...as such we grow up believing this is the only way of live....we are literaly under hypnosis...collective societal hypnosis....awaken from this....break free from the collective conciousness that has held u in a rutt for so long...a conciousness that says anger is ok....natural urges like sex are bad...everyman for himself....u HAVE to work hard..strain...exhaust urself...to achive ur dreams....a conciousness where violence is accepted as a last resort to defend ones opinion...and thats all War is...the ultimate position one takes to defend ones opinion...

mistaking ones self as thier objects also means defending those objects as u wud urself...opinion is an object...be it a subtle one...but one we defend against enyone who dares disagree

....ideas...beliefs...all these are objects that we mistake ourselves for...wars have been fought over opinions and beliefs....think about urself...how many times do u agrue in a day or a week just to defend ur opinion..idea..belief....the person u argue with feels jus like u....as if either will lose their lives if they lost the argument....oh God forbid if u lose an argument...sometimes i think people think the world wud sooner end than lose one...or changed thier minds about something....

...End this way of thinking...of being....realise that u need to not excert urself so....u have everything that u'v ever needed and wanted right now... in this moment..in this instant....

wat drives us all...wat makes us do anything...??...walk sit...stan...eat...buy a car...wat makes us do all this.....Desire....desire is that impulse...that feeling of potentiality that arises from the deepest parts of our beings...and all that desire desires....is to be fullfilled.....an it is completly natural....life is such that wat we desire is manifested in the physical.....from a desire from the non physical...to its manifestation in the physical....

simply put...wat we desire we manifest....but it is not that manifestation that fullfills us...no....becoz within us we contain both desire and manifestation...both question and answer...jus as the the universe excists in the perfect harmony of extreme opposites...hot and cold...far and near....here and there...high and low....big and small...male and female...light and darkness...a man born blind does not know darkness becoz he has neva seen light...as such we are beyond both aspects of the same...but we must know one to know the other...

so to think that the manifestation of a desire is the source of our hapiness...only leads to more suffering...manifestion is objective...physical...desire made flesh...no real hapiness or peace or love maybe found in any physical manisfestation of desire....its fleeting ever changing....how else wud life  be as it is if not for desire or more importantly the fullfillmemt of desire....humanity continues to advance technologicaly faster and faster based on desire...desire to get there quicker...to do things faster...we manifest our desires of doing all these things faster quicker, easier...and then attatch ourselves to these manifestations....realise that u are niether manifestation nor desire...as in nature...there is an effortless balance...

point in case: A gardener plants a seed...he has complete faith in nature...he does not worry or fear or pray for the seed to grow...he simply plants it...pays attention to it...and nature does the rest....within the seed...is the potential for a tree...within the seed is the neccessary mechanics for a tree to appear....finaly a tree appears and in a certain season the tree  produces apples....the tree apples...!!..lol....imagine an alien species came to the milkywat galaxy 2 million yrs ago...and found just a lump of earth....they leave and come bak 2 million yrs later..and find that lump of rock has people on it...they wud say "look that rock has peopled.."...lol...the universe is the tree...earth the apple...

in the same way that a seed has the potential to grow into a tree...we as humans...have that same seed...the same potential to grow...into wat we have only started to glimpse...think Einstein...think Jesus...think Mandela...inherant in the desire...is the mechanics for its fullfillment....i'll say it again...inherant in the desire...is the mechanics for its fullfillment....this is where it all comes together so pay close attention....where does desire arise from..??....we might say that it arises from a field of infinite possibilities AND impossibilities...a field of infinite potential....where anything and everything is possible...

lets think for second how the universe came about....if we say it begun at a certain point...that raises the question of wat was there b4...and wat  was there b4 that...and even b4 that... the truth of the matter is its impossible to say from where and when the universe came into being...but wat we can say for sure...is that it is...It just IS...another way of thinking about it is...this field of infinite potential....can be thought of as the underlaying background...the blackness that lies behind all creation...the nothingness from where all creation...all life simply springs from....lets think of it that way....then think of life as a desire from this infinite field of possibilities and impossiblities that has fullfilled itself.....as i sed earlier each desire has the neccessary mechanics for its fullfillment....

Look at nature....do u see nature struggling...working hard...do birds migrating to another region struggle...does the tree work hard to touch the sky and sun...do fish struggle to breath underwater.....the whole of nature works effeciently...organised to achive the most with the least effort...nature is vastly intelligent....as humans we'v studied nature in close detail...and the more we look the more we are at a loss to xplain....but we agree that there is an inteligence that organises natures complexities...moreover...the same complexity, intelligence is at work in our own bodies...

our bodies contain cells that think for themselves...they combat harmfull bacteria...they secrete the right hormones at precisely the right time in precisely the right amounts...our minds ARE our bodies...wen ur angry...the cells in ur body become angry too..agitated...adrenaline is secretted....wen ur happy ur cells are happy too...dopamine and seritonin are secretted making u feel good...euphoric....we have our very own drug store in our bodies a million times more efficient than any artificial drugs...infact the only time we as humans do anything is disturb the natural rythmn of our bodies....worrying..stressing...and fearing all affect our bodies producing harmful toxins that slowly poison our bodies....our bodies work perfectly wihtout us having to add all sorts of uneccessary preasures on them....it is a scientific fact that the most heart attacks  occured on Monday morning at 9am...coincidence..??....people who have suffered heart attacks were asked 2 questions..."are u happy and are u happy with ur job (job satisfaction) all cases the answer was no....do the math....

the same intelligence that organises the universe...that insures millions of stars and planets move in complete unison...in complete harmony with every thing else....and all done without the slighest effort....nature by doing less does more...effortlessly

this is where being grounded in ur own being bares fruit....all u need do is hold ur desire as it arises..simply be aware of it...and then let it go...leave the details to the universe...let that same intelligence that drives the stars and planets and ur body take care of how ur desire will be realised...becoz if u fuss...if u worry about how ur desire will be fullfilled....is attaching urself to the outcome....life is a process...a process of being...most people live life outcome oriented....always focused on the outcome....a desire arises and we immediately focus on the ourcome...completely over looking the joy of the process....the fullfillment lies in the porcess...other wise wats the use...wats the use of life at all if its goal oriented...u think life is going somewhere...to some finish line...to a goal..a place in time..in the future...no...life just is...its hapenin...a  process without effort...

wen we're dancing to music...do we aim for a specific spot on the dance floor and say "i will end up there"...no..we jus dance...the act itself is the goal...the fullfillment...this why we love music so much....music is just as it is...it just hapens...it has no particular place its going..if it was going somwhere...goal oriented...we have music made of just the end note....s big loud noise to say its the end...the last chords of the song....

the very fact that we are alive means that our desires will be fullfilled...and these desires are fullfilled with the least effort possible if we surrender to the wisdom of the universe...that sed...we might say that life is devine wisdom fullfilling itself...instead of pushing and pulling against life...sit back...let the universe take care of fine print...the small details...its better than any laywer u'll ever find...true hapiness....true peace comes becoz we relenquish both desire and manifestaion equally...inner fullfillment hapens simply becoz we are already content knowing that our desires will be fullfilled...even more...we have the oportunity in the light of knowing to enjoy the process of manifestation of desires....to relish an delight in the knowledge...the certainty that the universe is as it is....we over flow with abundance of all the qualities of love, peace, hapiness...so much so that we help others...we help nature...and in so doing have the whole force of the universe...of God behind us...becoz now we are doing natures work..Gods work...we are citizens of nature....

realise that u are part of the universe...part of the rocks the tress...stars...infact every time we take a breath we breath in ever single person on this earth...how u say..??...simple really....becoz of the nature of physicality...change is a constant...our bodies change...the trees change...the body u had 5yrs ago is no longer the same body u have now...everything from the stomach linning to ur skin is different...new cells replace old ones...the body u had yesterday is not the same one u have now...much as changed jus as u cannot step into the same river twice...each moment it changes...the basic element Carbon cannot be distroyed..its simply changes the pattern with which it conects itself....an ordinary stone left for a million years may become a diamond...Jesus or Mohamed or Buddha are all part of us becoz of we share the same basic elements...

but our cnciousness remains the same...unchanged....with a new body everyday...new cells...the taste buds in our mouths have have changed  so many times since birth but somehow  we still remember wat ice cream tastes like...where i this information stored...?? in the body..??..ur brain cells..??...they too are always replaced by new brain cells...and yet we remember all sorts of things...can u point to where memory is in ur head...no scientist has...but conciousness remians the same...it is not in the physical...its beyond the physical..and from pure conciousness...pure potential..... do we really come from..,from where a part of us still lies....from here does desire come and manifest in the physical....inside each one of us is the seed of God....its desire is to be fullfilled...become the God that u are....